Today, like many days before I felt anxious. I won’t get in to details of what triggered my anxiety because as each day passes I’m learning that it’s not important. I can tell you this, I caused my anxiety. Most days I can be fine if I just didn’t feed my curiosity. I need to learn to say “it doesn’t matter, none of it matters” my emotions are my responsibility not a weapon. So today rather then consume myself in depression and anxiety I popped in my head phones listened to an audio book and focused on cleaning. I’m amazed at how much I got done that I would not have gotten done if I decided to sit here in self pity. Now as I sit here relaxing on my couch writing this I’m proud, I look around at my clean house and feel empowered. For once I let my anxiety power me to do something productive, and the best part is, I powered through the hurt and it hurt a little bit less. The panic attack I felt lingering is now gone and my day was not wasted feeding in to my anxiety. So my tip for today is distraction, you can’t control the hurt but you can distract yourself from it. Free yourself from the emotional burden by just taking a deep breath in and let it go as you breath out. Tell you’re self that nothing can hurt you if you don’t let it. Yes I have been hurt but I am safe here, and they can not hurt me anymore if I do not let them. I will not give anyone the emotional ammo to take me down. I am a survivor, yesterday I survived, today I survived and tomorrow I will survive again. 💕
Work in progress 